Back on the ferry…

I’m on my way to an appointment in Manhattan so I’m on the ferry today. I’ve missed riding it to and from Manhattan. I’ve missed the people watching opportunities. I don’t really have that option at my current job not that it stops me from people watching anyway. Even if it’s mostly the  same people everyday; they don’t act the same everyday.

I’ve been giving a lot of though about giving my concerns and anxiety over to God they way he tells us to in the Bible. 1Peter 5:7 (NIV) “7Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.”  So easy to read; so difficult to do. It was difficult I should say. The more I put this verse into practice the easier it becomes. I have to say it out loud to The Lord, my worries and anxieties that is.

I’ve readily handed over to The Lord the issue of Thomas and his group home placement. I no longer worry about The when/how/why/etc…  It’s in Gods hands. It’s always been in His hands. I finally chose to accept it and hand over my worry to Him. I no longer get upset at how long this process has been taking. It’s ok, Gods timing hasn’t occurred yet for Thomas to move on.

The same goes for my Dad and his cancer. I’ve recently handed over to The Lord my dad and his chemotherapy  treatments to The Great Physician. Jehovah Rapha, the God who heals. This was a tough one but made easier with repetition. I’m now at the point where I fully believe my Dad and his medical treatments are in the hands of the great I Am.

Thy will be done. His will is not always what you or I would  want but what God’s will is and what He deems best. His ways are higher than ours and I know if I pray continuously and with passion I do feel his embrace and I’m able to lean on my Lord and Savior. He will not leave you and absolutely meets you where you are. Even on the ferry .

The job and life now

I’ve been working full time for about 3 weeks now and I really like it. I like being out of the house; I like having a purpose for my days. I  really like being around other people while I’m working. My immediate co workers are other nurses like me and I really enjoy their company and hearing about their backgrounds and their lives. We’re all so different but we all get along and help each other out.

My job is chart abstracting. Which is the technical term for saying I take paper charts and doctor’s notes and put them on a specific computer program that I’ve been trained to use. I find the work to be challenging at times since I don’t know every medical abbreviation out there and doctors aren’t exactly known for having neat handwriting. I like what I do, I don’t find it boring although sitting in front of a computer all day can be challenging. That can be solved by taking a mini break or stretching, getting a glass of water… I really enjoy working with the people who work at the office I’m assigned to. That staff had been wonderful to us. Very helpful and just all around nice.

The most challenging part of working full time is getting dinner on the table and making sure Samantha’s homework is done. My first day of work, when I walked through the door my girls looked at me like “well? Where’s dinner?” I didn’t know which way to turn first. I did think ahead and had chicken defrosted but I felt like I couldn’t cook it fast enough. Oh and let’s not forget about the laundry!

Im so grateful to God for this job. I prayed and prayed for the job I knew God had in store for me and He heard me. He waited for the depression to be lifted and for me to be able to handle working these hours and to be able to care for my family all at the same time. I can’t say when would have been a better time because God’s timing is always perfect. Always.